TGI...T?

Another Thursday has come to pass. It's always about this time of the week I start to really feel like crap. I guess lots of things are not quite going so swimmingly. Well, by lots of things I mostly mean senior project and job fair.

As you may or may not know by now I have two huge responsibilities this year. The first is job fair chairman. I need to get cracking on the planning but there are little tasks I need to get out of the way, and my committee members have not gotten back to me. Of course everyone's busy. A ton of people just took the EIT and we're in midterms week. Hopefully I can get on top of that this weekend.

Now senior project... project manager.... I feel completely out of place. There are so many aspects that make this a very difficult part to manage. One of the larger issues is the fact that this project is so close to reality yet still within the realms of a student project. We are being lead one way by the original conceivers, another way by the consultants hired, and another way by our faculty adviser. I feel like my voice has been squashed under the pressure caused by these three entities among other things.

If I didn't demand so much perfection out of myself, life would be much easier. I need that insight to make things work and get out of my idealistic bubble.

I wish I could say I were praying more often and putting my faith in God, but I am not. I am full of fear. So please, if you are reading this, pray for me. I want to help make this world a better place, but sometimes the biggest thing getting in my way is me.