if only...

...I knew what my purpose is.  I've always wondered, and at times I've fooled myself/others into thinking I know what it is, but I don't really know.  Engineering, all of a sudden, seems quite insignificant.  Am I really meant to serve as an engineer?  Is it enough, to start a family, work, and in my free time, truly serve?  Is starting a family really serving anyone? 

I'm in the mood to move outside myself.  Perhaps if I were a better man, I'd focus on helping a poor soul w/ a shitty family rather than trying to make a perfect family of my own. 

Alright, time to not look so far down the road.  Tomorrow's another day, gotta do what tomorrow beckons.  Right now, I suppose that's sleep.