I need to pray more

so here it goes...

dear father,

today was a good day. not because it began well, nor because i got much of my work done. it was good because i got to be near you. so thank you, father.

i always hate to ask favors, but i still i ask you to please be with me. i am not strong enough to go on without you, and my vision is not so sharp as to always see you. so please, father, be with me and make your presence known to me and to those around me.

it's been quite a difficult journey thus far, and i know there's much more to go. you have always been with me, but lately i have questioned if you're even there. i question if i'm crazy, silly, or even inferior to believe you're there and that you care for me.

the truth is, i am inferior. i am weak, and i am very small. this universe is so vast, and this life so short. so in many ways i need you. please put me in my place. it's too easy to get lost here.

father, please help me and guide me. nourish my body, mind, and soul so that i may do what is required of me. not for my sake, but for those who may depend on me.

forgive me for my sins, for the hatred, the carelessness. forgive me for not believing, for questioning. in your compassion, father, please hear me, please let me hear you. protect and bless all your children, especially those who are close and dear to me.

good night, pops. i love you, or at least i'm trying.

amen